My Angel Dream…

So I love to dream, it just stirs me up so much to have a dream life and the more i have realized over the years that the Lord speaks to me through my dreams, the more excited i get. Now granted i have many pizza dreams, but i am learning to discern between the pizza dreams and the God dreams… So i felt real kissed by the Lord the other night when i had “my angel dream”…..

 I dreamt that a friend and i were walking along when a huge ( i mean gigantic) being stood in front of us.  It was dressed in a black chiffon like garment.  At first i said “who are you!” but when it looked down i realized it was a angel and we started trembling with the fear of the Lord on us, we knew this was a angel from the Lord.  This angel told us four things to go and proclaim, so in the dream we went and told the Zhop (Zadok House of Prayer) about them and then went and told the city.

 Ok, so when i woke up i could not remember the four things, so i started crying out to the Lord to tell me, or remind me or something…

So a couple days after the dream, my friend called me (the one that was with me in the dream) and she said that she picked up this prophetic word that was given in August, and in this  word it said.. “and a angel of the Lord appeared and said to tell this generation four things…(sounds crazy, just stick with me) it carried on to say.. the Lord said ENOCH, DANIEL, ISAIAH, JOESPH.” Ok, lets pause for a minute, not only was the angel saying four things, but my son’s name is ENOCH DANIEL – You bet this got my attention!

The word went on saying that the Lord is saying that this generation will walk with God like Enoch did, in an intimacy and depth like non other. We will also be a generation that Prays and fasts like Daniel did.  It went on saying that we will contend and see the Glory like Isaiah did, and last but not least we will be a generation that moves with finances like Joesph.

I justthink the Lord is calling us up higher and to deeper levels.. Oh, I have so many questions and so few answers – this Man that provokes my heart – How far will He let me go?

The wisdom of God…

I have been thinking about the plans and ways of God lately.  I think about His genius ways in how He allows us to fall in love with a person, marry them, die daily to our selves, and then have children.

And He does this all so that we will learn His heart and how He loves us.  Learn to be the bride with Him as the Bridegroom just waiting for our one glance. Then when we have children i just see the wisdom of God in that.  I just look at Enoch and see the way he looks at me and how my heart leaps at the sight of his glance and the depth of his smile and the embrace of his arms and think boy, is this the way God feels about me.. Oh Yes it is!! yipee!! The wisdom of God… how much bigger is it then we can wrap our minds around.

 Oh, and on a more sober note, yes you heard right i did it i cooked my first turkey and it was good, if i must say it myself.. and not only did i do that but i went way beyond that and made turkey soup from the left overs…

Mother Bear!!

So i had my first “mother bear” experience  last night.  We were at the dinner table with some dear friends when Enoch (my 4 and half month old) started to just scream bloody murder (south african term for scream like you about to be murdered) so my first thought was that he was extremely tired and i should just hold him (sometimes if there are too many people he gets over stimulated and cries – i thought it was one of those times) so i took him from the person holding him and embraced him with a comforting hug, but as i did this all i could smell was extremely strong mint/wintergreen smell.  I started to panic a little as i sniffed his neck and ears but by the time i got to his mouth the smell was potently strong and very obvious that he had swollowed something. 

So as any first time mom would react i swept him away with panic and started saying “its mint its mint what did he swollow!)  I needed to know, i ran to Adam and said honey something is very wrong (At this time Enoch screaming and would not stop) i started sucking out the salvia out of his mouth, asking what could it be, should we race to the hospital, just someone tell me, this is my child! thoughts of bengade and posion  were going through my mind trying to figure out what it could be. 

Adam (faithful, calm, not painickedAdam) came with a cloth and put it in his mouth to help absorb all the salvia and burn, as his mouth was on fire.  Finiallyafter much time (felt like hours) he stopped crying. I nursed him and felt a whole lot better or calm or should say.

Later in the evening we figured out that it was probably some form of Altoids that got into his mouth and being a baby that has only been exposed to  breast milk, it was a severe shock to his little body… hence our sleepless night last night as his stomach was trying to figure out this foreign substance in his body.  

One thing that i am feeling this morning from the Lord is His great affection and love over me, as i realized that i if i reacted like a “mother bear” with mear mint burning my  child’s mouth how much does He react on my behalf when i am going through things and trying to figure them out, or something unexpected hits me and i feel helpless.. Oh we serve a great God… 

 Enoch is sleeping at the moment and doing much better, i am going to join him and catch up on some of my sleep!

Oh how good is our God!!

I just want to say that the Lord is truly faithful.  If there is one name i am sure of, from the Lord it would be His faithfulness and goodness.  I feel like He is always providing not just in the natural but in the spiritual too.  I feel like i petitioned Him for many things lately and He has come through in glorious ways. 

 For instance, we were running out of food and had no money this past week, and with out saying anything (except crying out to God in prayer) one of my real good friends went to costco and bought us several dinners and somethings for lunch..  Another thing is i have being crying out for the Lord to touch Adam in a major way and what did He do, he encountered him in away that has  truly changed his life…. AMEN!!

Once again i find myself with great intentions, this week has being real hard to go to the prayer room, my body just feels exhausted and i am having guests over and as i have been cleaning and getting things ready the Lord has truly come to me and met me.. He used some people here on the base to totally read my mail (prophecy) and touch my heart (i believe the Lord loves doing that)

I am just very greatful today for the Lords great goodness and grace over me… Oh how good is our God!!

Great Intentions!

Do you ever have great intentions and great plans for a day and never get to them, you promise your self you will, but by the time midnight comes (and boy does it come quickly) you are so ready for bed you cant even muster up the energy to do one more thing.  Well this is where i am finding my self lately (which is very unlike me – i love a “to do list”, just ask my husband)  I find it very frustrating, but at the same time i see the seasons changing and regardless if i fight it or not they are going to change, i can either do it with much joy or kicking and screaming all the way till next spring I am trying to choose the former!!

Lately i am finding myself wrestling on how to do my whole life with excellence, you see i desire and admire Daniel and want the excellence in my life that he had.  But i find myself juggling balls i don’t neccessarily need to juggle at this time.  i think i just like the way they looked and added them to my life… I guess i am trying to work out before the Lord on how to run the race of a lover of God, a wife a mom, be in the prayer room 6 hours a day, run an internship and keep all my friends all at the same time.  The challenge for me is living in community and having everyone doing it a little different, and each one having there opinions for my life, all i want is to hear the voice of the Lord and run with that, all i want is for my heart to love and know that i am doing what the Lord is requiring of me for myself and my family.  I love His ways and even though they don’t always look like my logic or even my desire i know that in the long run i will win my race if i listen and obey.

i want my only debt in life to be love!  This is my prayer for now, this is my desire….

A colorful day off….

Thursdays are our official day off here at ZHOP, there is a strange feeling that comes every week when we wake up thinking that it is Saturday and that we are going to fight the Saturday traffic, but it is Thursday (never feels like a day off), but  very much needed… anyway, so today started off around 7am when i could not sleep any longer (very unusual) so i got up and made Adam monkey bread, no its not some bread from Africa, but some delicious cinnamon buttery sugary baked bread (Adams favorite)! 

After that i decided to bring color to one of the rooms in our house… oh what a difference color will make in a house, it almost takes your house and turns it into a home.. we were real excited when one of our dear friends designated some money towards painting our house.. this is a real exciting thing for me, i feel like i am putting my house together… Corinne our cousin  helped me paint.. oh what joy!!

What i love about ZHOP and Kirk (director of ZHOP) is that he values the moms in his midst.. today he took all the moms out and let us eat and drink as much as we wanted and found out how we were doing, and cast his vision for us as moms and our children.. i love that!!

 Anyway this was my day… it was full of color – olive green and deep tan to be exact…

Yes, the rumor is true… i have started a blog!

So thanks to my husband Adam setting this page up for me, and encouraging me to start writing and to my friend Char that promises to be my biggest blog fan, i have decided to start writing… For many years people have encouraged me to write all my stories and all the amazing things the Lord has taken me through, and i have never seemed to of found the time to sit down and do this, so i think that this “blog world” that i have just been sucked into will be extremely beneficial for me.  Who has time to sit and write a whole book at once, but when i look at it as one entry a day i feel i can handle this and in a couple of years with out much effort my book is written and my closest friends and family have kept up with my life one day at a time….. Oh this is exciting, why don’t you come with me as my “blog journey” begins…..